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Thursday, December 01, 2005

YEPpie?

I went for the Young Executive Programme preview by Fin-exis yesterday [the person who invited me told me lunch was provided and I immediately accepted =)], and almost got sold into the idea of becoming a financial advisor. The whole event was strangely competitive and felt very much like "Survivor" where everyone tried their darndest best to act enthusiastic and intelligent to prevent their elimination. They even got two up-and-coming financial advisors to speak to us, and I was pretty much amazed at how convinced they were that they are helping others, that this career unleashed their potential and changed them for the better.

I guess I never realised how much I loved Biology till I went for this preview. I've been mulling over whether I should try to take it up part-time, but I realised that I'll never be able to succeed since I don't fully believe in the financial products that I'll be peddling. Lots of their financial advisors were studying subjects unrelated to finance, but I also noticed that most of them had lost interest in what they were studying in the first place. I thought too that Biology had become dreary and monotonous, since studying for the exams this time round was extremely taxing and I seemed to have lost some drive in me. It is also a known fact that scientists don't earn much and yet they have to put in a lot of time in the lab. I mean, why become a scientist when you can earn a few times more being a financial advisor with the same amount of time put in?

It is a not so well-known fact that my family is not doing very well financially. I think I should help them out in this respect, and I've been told that earning 3k a month by doing part-time financial advising is not a problem. But it's a trade-off with my studies, and I don't want to jeopardise my honours classification as I hope to get at least a second upper and the fourth year will be quite rigorous. And actually come to think of it, I'm not very interested in finance anyway. If I take this up, it will purely be for the money, and I will feel like I've become a slave to money. It just doesn't feel right. Plus, I realised that I really have a deep-seated passion for science, as if an innate sense of inquisitiveness that was previously dormant has suddenly awakened and jolted me up.

However, there is this niggling thought in the back of my mind: What if God had brought me to this event so that I could get an opportunity to earn some good money, which will come in handy for both my studies (PhD) and my family's expenses when my dad is retrenched? Or maybe I've interpreted it wrongly, and that God's purpose could be to help me rediscover my zest and love for science instead?

I think I shall ask Him tonight.

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